Goodbye my baby boy....see you soon

Well, my baby is leaving for LA tonight. Apartment has been found and he is off to start his new life in the big city. I am so very proud of him, he is following his dream and doing it for the most part on his own. It's going to be a great learning experience for him, I am sure of that. But I can't help getting teary eyed every now and again as I sit here taking phone calls.

I would have loved to take the night off but it wouldn't have been wise after taking three days last week for grandpa's funeral. It is now 6:30 and I am wondering if they have gotten everything loaded up......I hope he remembers to leave the keys.....

Love you, sweetie, drive safe, see you soon.

My grandfather past away at midnight on 8-11-06. I've been a bit numb since my sister called to tell me Saturday morning. It wasn't really a surprise given his health but it's still hard to imagine him gone. Grandma looked so frail on Saturday, won't be surprised if she doesn't last long herself.

It's been a couple days now and I'm still a bit numb. I'm able to have a couple days off this week for the funeral, won't be paid time off but it will be nice not to be here. I've already had two calls where passengers have either lost or are losing loved ones. Those are always tough but tonight they are harder to deal with. At the moment I'm trying to process a ticket for a guy trying to get to his sisters side before she dies. Pretty grim. I feel I could use a stiff drink.

My supervisor did say if I needed more time to let her know but really, sitting here and taking calls keeps my mind off of family problems so I think staying at work is a better idea.

Feel exhausted today, all the filming on weekends must have caught up with me today. Slept until 3 pm and then rushed off to work. I tried to take a nap on my lunch but ended up just laying there zoning in and out. I feel like a zombie.

*yawn* oi......

Perhaps if I got a chocolate bar or something.

Yep....Snickers to the rescue :D

I'm more awake now. Now that I have only three hours left to be here...lol My daughter called me and we chatted a bit on my break. It reminded me how close we are to having B move away for college. It's a bit scary to think about. We discussed getting together before he leaves and trying to fit all of the schedules together. It gets more difficult with all of us working.

Talked to the super about the hours needed to pass probation....ugh...it's over a thousand and I'm at 386....bleah. I'll never get there at this rate. Better start working overtime.

I am so bloody bored I could scream.....the calls have been coming in about every 5 minutes....or more....ugh. It's making the night draaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag.

Wondering how the filming is going tonight. Hope that everything is going smoothly for growlf and co.

Went to my rental company to give my 30 day notice to leave and they need my co-signers signature....>:( I was hoping I wouldn't have to bother my cousin again to sign for me. But she was sweet enough to come to my place of work and sign the paperwork. Now I just have to take it back over to the rental co and put it in the drop box. It was such a hassle to have to have a co-signer when I first applied for the apartment and a bit irritating. I was surprised that I couldn't rent on my own given that I'd owned homes for 18 years. But they didn't want to trust a newly divorced woman to pay her rent I guess. Didn't have a job at that time but I was looking and was going to have the child support to help cover costs, but they still wanted a co-signer.

On the upside, I am now getting an apartment all on my own....no co-signer. At 46 years of age I'm finally building credit on my own again. It's just too bad that all those years of marriage counted for nothing. Message to my own children, and any other young person who asks, build separate credit of your own whether you marry or not. If the marriage last, great, but in that off chance that it all goes down the shitter, at least you won't have to flounder about in debt hell.

It will be nice to be living in another town other than the one I've lived in for most of my life. It's like starting a new chapter in my life....cool. Perhaps I should get another tattoo to commemorate it....hee!

Went swimming this afternoon...well, what I call swimming....bobbing around in the pool and trying NOT to get dunked or splashed by the other monkeys in the pool.

Ahhhh!! ALMOST booked a 6,349.00 trip....lady then decided to just put it on hold....rats. :(

Going out for nachos for lunch....:D LOOoooooooooove nachos.

Just got back from having nachos....and a few sips of margarita....:D

Feeling a bit fuzzy tonight. Taking phone calls is going to be interesting. Maybe I'll get more energy later on.

Packed up some stuff today for my upcoming move....all of the little things that I really don't use that often....you know books, cds, shot-glasses. Holy cow I have a lot of shot glasses!! I didn't realize how many were in the cupboard. Maybe I should have a shot party.

Just finished speaking with a gentleman from Scotland....he had the most beautiful voice....I love Scottish accents.....they make me all fluttery inside. :D

I'm feeling incredibly tired and cranky at the moment....Combination of the heat, pms and this stupid job. The people are getting on my last nerve tonight with their idiotic questions.

Feeling a bit less grumpy now...had a coke and Heath candy bar....yum...guess I just needed some caffeine.

Oi....getting sleeeeepeeee....should probably stand up to take these calls...bleah....caffeine has worn off.

My ears hurt. Not a good thing when you wear headphones for a living. I switched headphones and it seemed to help a bit....until you get the guy who thinks he's talking through a megaphone to the hearing impaired.

Watched the dailies from the movie we're making last night....it looks fabulous! The kids in it are amazing, especially the two main actors. They make me teary eyed when I see their performance. I can't wait to see the finished product.

time just keeps slipping, slipping, slipping.....

Just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round......

How i mixed those two songs together in my head I've no idea....

I think I'm going crazy.....why do people call to make a reservation and not have their information at the ready??? or a pen/pencil to write down the flight info??? Sheesh.

Just a few more minutes and I'm free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm logged off my phone for the moment....just having one of those days....no...weeks. Can't shake this slump I'm falling into worrying about everything....money, job, friends, family....I hate feeling like this.

Tomorrow will be two years since my divorce and financially I'm struggling just like my x said I would when the jackass left me. He's living large and the kids and I struggle to make ends meet most of the time. I know that's just life but it does feel extremely unfair. When does he get what's coming to him? Whatever.

Song just popped into my head..."I hate the world today..." I don't really but I just feel so alone. I miss my mother so much that I find it hard when others have a mother and get to spend time with them. I wouldn't ever wish them to feel my pain but I'd give anything for just one more day to laugh with my mom.

Helped with a movie this weekend playing a cult member and a ghost. It was interesting to say the least. I didn't mind being painted up to look dead, sitting on my knees for hours, having bloodied eyeballs, and black teeth......but could have done without a couple of the people there. Had to bite my tongue a couple of time so I wouldn't say something I'd regret. It's always amazing to me that some people assume that the whole world revolves around them, thus making everyone around them miserable.

While helping to put things away Saturday night, I trip on a wire and smashed my head up against a log. I had a huge lump on my head and cuts and bruises. Felt a bit woozy for a while but mostly felt like a complete idiot. My nickname for the day and a half was "Lumpy" .....har,har...you'd think at my age I'd have learnt to watch where I'm walking.

God I'm bored as hell. This job sucks tonight because I totally wish I was still up at Indian Creek playing movie-making. I miss W. :( It's only 10:30 so I have 2 and a half hours left.....ugh.

I sooooooooo want to go home.....but I need the money....and I'm getting paid to sit here and write in my blog.........hee. My head is still bruisey and I'm covered with bites even though I had bug stuff on. I think they like the taste of it. There are two on my wrist and the itch like hell.

Just got a call wanting a discount because they worked for Microsoft....yeah, right. Whatever hun.

I'm stuffing my face because I'm bored....not a good habit. But Pringles are so damn good.

Oh.....my....GOD!!! I just spent 10 minutes trying to explain a pricing to an elderly man....he'd re-booked a ticket from a previous ticket that he had to cancel and thought that the new ticket price was what he'd been charged. No matter how I attempted to explain that it was merely showing the value of the ticket and he'd paid the difference between the old and new ticket, he insisted that he was being charged the price of the new ticket. I was getting ready to pull out all my hair and his with it.

Just took a break, it's now 12:10.....bleah.

I wish there were a way to speed up time right about now.

hanging out again with my ear glued to a phone just waiting and hoping that I get sa....early quit time....pleeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzz.

eating pringles and totally tired of taking phone calls.....i need a weekend off....maybe longer...lol

I did get a giggle or two earlier over some of the goofy calls. It always makes the day better, especially after you've been chewed out three calls in a row. One call had me in tears but after walking around the building for a few minutes I was able to compose myself.

Sitting...ok, standing at work....just waiting for the phone to ring....and it does...ugh.

Don't really mind this job but sometimes the waiting is long. I do get much amusement over the odd calls....keeps me from going too crazy.

Must rest up tonight for the weekend shoot.....have a tendency to stay up late surfing the net after working late into the night. Usually blog on my livejournal but since I'm blocked from that one the randomness goes here.

yeegads....just clocked off for my lunch break and it's nearly time to clock back on....30 minutes doesn't go by that quickly when working.....

Wooooah....just had an onslaught of calls.....info central....zero sales.....either I am really bad at making the sale...or people just don't want to travel.

1 hour 25 minutes left......gah.

LOL!! Just got a call that sounded as if it were in a washing machine...chug, chug, chug, chug....the noise slows a bit after a minute and I realize that it was the sound of someones jeans as they were walking....obviously they called by mistake.

45 more minutes......lalalalalala

wonder if anyone would notice if I fell asleep??